a mommy's heart hurts...

...when she suspects her little one's not feeling very good.

Bridget's been a bit fussy since getting her vaccinations Wednesday, but last night her breathing got a little faster and a little more raspy than usual. And she was terribly, terribly fussy last night and again this morning. This morning she even wanted to eat more and I let her, just because I know that it comforts her. She went down pretty easily for a nap about an hour ago, and I'm hoping she sleeps for a while because I suspect she needs it. But if she doesn't, I'll cuddle up with her to feed her and watch the Dollhouse season finale that I never got around to. And cuddle with her some more after that.

Even though she's not feeling very good, Bridget seems to have learned something new today: she can grasp things with her hands and then put them in her mouth. I first noticed in between feedings number one and two today. I had her sitting in my lap facing me and one of her blankets was over both of our legs. She studied the blanket and (it seemed to me) very deliberately put her hands forward, pulled the blanket toward her, and started chomping on it. I would have thought it was a fluke, except she kept doing it--and did it later with a little toy I gave her (it's a dog's head on a little square of a blanket, so like a stuffed animal and blanket all in one). It was so interesting to watch her work with her hands other than trying to stuff them into her mouth.

Mommy's tired today, but this is the first day since I mentioned it that I'm consciously trying to eat and make healthier choices. Instead of chocolate chip cookies, I had oatmeal for breakfast, and I ate a home-made egg salad sandwich on 12-grain bread (egg salad made with light mayo) and red grapefruit for lunch. I just want to make sure I'm taking in enough calories, though, and trying to think ahead to dinner (and a snack in between, since we don't eat until about 8:00 pm when Al's working) to keep it healthy--and throw in a veggie or two. Hmm...

Gonna go sew while I have the chance. I haven't forgotten Lily's crib set, or Kustom Kribs--just sneaking in a few minutes here and there to work on it whenever possible!